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I’m so tired

But I still can’t sleep

My eyes are so heavy

I could close them

But as soon as I would fall asleep

I would awake

From the haunting of bad dreams

The dark circles under my eyelids tell a story

They tell a story of me not sleeping for 4 days straight

But now it’s 5:43 in the morning and I have to get ready for school

I need this credit so I can’t be late

All I do is go from house to house

crashing on strangers couches when I dont want to go home

I dont want to go home to be alone

So I go all these places see old familiar faces

faces I didnt want to see agian

everynight I go out just so I wont be lonely

Im surrounded by cigarettes drugs and alcohol

But that stuffs terrible I DONT want it at all

still I keep going, go places I dont really want to go

just to stop my aching

just to stop my heart from breaking

There are holes in my soul that need to be filled

Demons in my mind that need to be killed

I wonder what you’re doing right now

Most likely you’re sleeping

Warm in your bed

You’re probably doing great I know I’m not in your head

I think about you

And I think about me

Then I think about my future and how hard I have worked to get where I am

Everything I gave up just to prove I could be better than the rest

But it was all just a test

I have no room to criticize my family now

I’ve repeated their same mistakes and I don’t even know how

There are holes in my soul that need to be filled

Demons in my mind that need to be killed

In the future I want to get married

In the future I want to raise happy children

Among a small town

And wed go to the big cities

Just to play around

In the future I want to go home to the same face every night

Sleep besides the same body ,the same arms to hold me tight

Wake up to that same face every morning

Be able to tell him that I love him any time of the day

And him be able to tell me baby I Love You, I feel the same

There are holes in my soul that need to be filled

Demons in my mind that need to be killed

Now I’ll never be good enough

But maybe it’s not too late

I should have looked to see who was knocking before I opened up the gate

The gate to my heart that is

Because I wasn’t ready for all this

Something so small that started with your kiss

I should have listened to my brother

the second time around

I should have known he’d be the only one there

When all my skies came down

There are holes in my soul that need to be filled

And demons in my mind that need to be killed

Let me explain to you why I haven’t been able to sleep

This is the secret I just can’t keep

I have nightmares of something coming to life inside of me

Something not visible to the human eye

Something you’ll never have the chance to see

But that’s not the worst part when I finally fall to sleep

I awake to my own screams

Then I see that I was just caught in dream

The same pattern throughout the night

The same reoccurring nightmare

Nightmares,

but my heart can’t take the pain

Its so hard I know its your fault but I feel bad for you

SO  I will take the blame

I have dreams of you seeing my secret

Then when I let go and decide not to keep it

You cant handle my reality

So instead of standing by my side

While I go through this horrible ride

You murder me inside my dreams

And then you turn away

Your tongues tied in knots

I guess when I told you

You just didn’t know what to say

There are holes in my soul that need to be filled

Demons in my mind that need to be killed.

If I can fall asleep now

There’s still hope for tomorrow

Maybe someone will be kind

And lend my there courage to barrow

I will need all the courage and strength inside

Ill need all the love and support I can find

Since I don’t have yours

I’ll need others 10 times more.

I’ve committed a real crime this time

But I wont let you have the pleasure of claiming this soul inside of me

Its not yours its mine

It’s a piece of you

But even if you did have it

you still wouldn’t know what to do

There are holes in my soul that need to be filled

And demons in my mind that need to be killed.