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March 30th- 

 

My body is cold

My lips are blue

Why did I do this

Because of you?

 

I feel the earth below me

Like a pillow under my head

No knifes 

No guns

But pills instead

 

The bottle lays empty

Cap unscrewed

What did I do? 

What did I do?

 

My spirit floats 

My body lays

My mother finds me

She just prays

 

I reach for her

I'm sucked away

Like a deep crest of a wave

 

She pounds the ground

Screaming why oh why? 

Again, I asked myself why did I?

 

My brother arrives

My best friend too

I thought to myself

What did I do!?

 

I look away

The pain's too deep

My life is probably over

Because of me

 

I look back 

For one last glance

As they take me into the ambulance 

I did this to ease my pain

But I lost instead of gained

As I look around

My family

I regret that night

For I scared you so

 

What reason did I have 

To stop my lifeline

It was all because of a fight

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this poem the last time I became smysteriously suicidal a little less than a month ago. Please don't judge but try to understand that I am going through my own battles and have my own demonds that are hard to control. I am doing my best. 

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last updated 17 April 2014 - 7:06pm
©17 April 2014 - 7:04pm — SurvivingLostLove
17 April 2014 - 9:35pm — LostInTranslation
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I think you expressed you

I think you expressed you feelings very well.  It's sad, beautifully written at the same time.  I don't know or understand your struggles, but I have my own, and it's never easy... Be strong. 

-- Jordan <3