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As every day passes by,
I ponder more and more.
The word suicide always seems to come to mind.
As I lose myself in my thoughts it creeps up like a predator hunting its prey with desire and passion.
Every day I think about it more and more
Especially times when I am alone in the dark and in the silence.
It calls my name, whispering into my ear that it will solve all of my problems.
It asks me why live with my pain and sufferings when all of it can go away.
It adds on to my pain of loss and the pain of never feeling love or happiness.
It speaks to me every day now and it says to me: why must you live with all of this suffering? Come to me and you will finally feel the true feeling of happiness. Leave all of your problems behind and I will embrace you in thy arms of darkness and watch over with thy eyes of pure evil. As long as you are with me I will protect you from the pain and the suffering.
These words that it speaks to me are so intriguing.
I sometimes feel like giving into the darkness as long as it will keep me safe and dry these tears of pain.
I do not want to die for it is the one thing in this wretched life that I fear but I feel that it is my only solution.
And as it whispers in my ear the words that it does my body and soul feel comforted.
More time passes by and I feel that I will be devoured by the darkness.
I feel darkness is coming for me soon now I can sense it, hear it, and smell it.
I now fall down on my knees and cry out in my loudest voice to my Lord and God, HELP!
