I cry because at times life gets so unfair and tough..I cant control it
I cry because these memories and flashbacks wont seem to fade..or go away..
I cry because everytime the sun in my world starts to peek out from behind a cloud,
a sudden storm always breaks through.
I cry because I feel lost, and confuesed....
I feel worthless,used, angry and sad.
I cry because I dont know who to trust anymore..
how could I when the one I loved and trusted stole my innocence and self worth
so harshly that now life seems unbearable.
I cry because all that I have let happen to me.
The blame and self guilt sinks me down so far I feel like Iam drowning.
I cry because it relieves me,
because I need to free my soul of all thats hurting within me.
Nessa...wow these are really powerful words...I want you to know that I love you always and forever...rememeber that you can ALWAYS lean on me for anything..no matter what!!! And although, I did not physically birth you, please know that I have always and will always consider you MY child...I miss you lots..love you more...MA