Unbearable Silences

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Pain

Sitting here beside you feeling lost
I had no idea how much pain healing took
If I would have known that sanity was the cost
I would have hid the world you shook

Now I'm caught by you in another unbearable silence

I cannot think of any words to say to break it

I need somone to turn to for some guidance

Someone who knows I'm not fine, I only fake it

Sitting in another unbearable silence and I can't breathe

I am waiting for you to open up, speak a word

But I guess I should probably get up and leave

Leave this silence where there is nothing to be heard

This unbearable silence burns like a fire

Its loudness roars in my ears

Your presence that once lifted me higher

Now reminds me of my darkest fears

In this unbearable silence, why won't you speak?

Why can't I think of what I should say?

Why is this draining me, making me so weak?

Why isn't this darkness ever broken by the sun's ray?

You are still sitting there, not going to leave

Forcing us in this silence that feels like Hell

There is nothing here that I believe

As I realize now how hard I fell

I'm shivering now with a mix of pain and fear

As this silence continues for what is forever

You are killing me slowly, my end is near

As surviving by you is an impossible endeavor

I still don't know how to talk or what to say

I'm burning in agony, dying in this pain

You turn slowly and look my way

But silently look away, and I fall slain

Author's Notes/Comments:

So this girl was once someone I was very close to. Indeed, I loved her very much. But a recent turn of events has left her full of some misguided hate, bred through lies, and me falling apart inside, each day becoming more like a zombie. When we are near each other, we are locked in a horrible silence that feels like Death has come to sit between us, and it is so unbearable.