We should not have come here; and never should return.
I will not return, sane, to the earth. My mind unravels slowly.
We should have remained in our solar system, that system was ours---
our home, our interplanetary temple of education;
our solar system was our evolution's destination.
But Pride, that always grasps, and scrabbles and clutches for more
is like a ravenous drug addict, a feral beast, or an insatiable whore.
We thought our words on earth were sufficient for all communications;
our intelligence sufficient to all contingent situations:
we thought the courage of our species constituted the epitome
of devotion to duty and to personal bravery.
My mind unravels slow; we should not have come here.
Here, and elsewhere I suspect, are horrors to which no language is adequate,
of which even a primal scream (of doubtful survival) is dubiously heard.
Dimension exist that crush our geometries,
as small sandpiles are pulverized by a trouble sea's crashing waves.
Too much, too often, too wrecklessly we dare
to approach these sentiences that gibber like a lunatics' nightmare;
we have nothing they have not, nor do they wish to share
the knowledge they jealously guard with us; nor do they care
that they have twised our minds, and sodomized our souls.
My mind unravels slowly like a tattered skein.
I shall not be returned to my home on earth perceptibly sane.
We should never have come here; and, if all or part of this
transmission you receive, and decipher, and hear---
oh please restrain your swagger and boisterious braggadocio
to earth and the solar system which, by now, are accustomed to them:
but do not bring them here.
Starward