I think you enjoyed the rut,
the furrow that became a bog, in
which you found yourself; the glut
of sorrow for the "might have been"---
words and gestures overly dramatic
(as if performed from some schematic).
Even then, aspiring to poetry,
your verse sounded like the Confessionals'---
though then they were "all the fashion,"
drowning in shallows of misery,
which you (and they) believed to prove souls' passion.
Your poems were like flamboyant processionals.
These were, merely, bids for sympathy:
I know you knew that, privately.
But, on that campus, you could not admit
that stark and glaring fact publicly---
the persona you had crafted
in all those pages of trash you drafted.
ENVOI:
And you, who had, then, used the name Starwatcher
failed, so often, to look toward the skies;
but that cannot be any real surprise
because, in those days, you were a self-botcher,
sour whines pressed to a vintage others could despise.
Starward
I felt awkward reading this,
I felt awkward reading this, an intrusion of privacy which in hand sight was excellent.20/20 vision if i knew back then what I know now... what when why and how... best note scrawl to ones self I've seen in ages! Glad you found your star tracks hugss
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."
Thank you. I felt rather
Thank you. I felt rather awkward writing it, but I felt I needed to say it to myself. Thanks for the kind comment.
J-9th94