In my parents' holiday behavior, Holy PASCHA (or, as
they called it, just Easter) was only a miniature
Christmas; in which they invested less planning,
less cash outlat, ittle decorative effort (except for
coloring the eggs, on the Saturday before);
no concern, or even acknowledgement of the
spiritual meaning. My grandparents---who were
not active Christians; but descended from
sectarian Christians---nevertheless, seemed to
delight far more in Easter than anyone else in my
family: more eggs, hidden outdoors in faith that the
weather would become inclement (it never did), a
large easter basket concealed must more cleverly.
For me, that venue, my grandparents'
horizontally small but vertically huge property
always, upon every visit I made---even in the
most snowbound part of winter---alluded to PASCHA
(despite worldly interferences against which
it was a welcome retreat); sometimes, just a
subtle whisper but most definitely audible to
my soul. Even then, blue was my favorite color; the
robin's egg blue eggs were my favorites to find, and
I always asked that they be the last to be peeled and
consumed at the Paschal dinner. In my fifth or sixth
year, I discovered that the concrete foundation slab, on which
my grandparents' small cottage stood, was painted
robin's egg blue---visible on the Southeast corner where, at
almost always through spring, summer, and autumn, the
grass somehow drew back as if intenting to disclose this
aspect---in order to provide me yet one more sense of
awe, and the supremest of all the awes available to me at
my Grandparents' house. My grandfather passed away in
nineteen sixty-nine, approximately two weeks before that
year's Easter. My grandmother moved away, and sold the
whole property, to move in with her caregivers, in
nineteen seventy-seven, the weekend after
Thanksgiving; but I have still preserved the
memory of it---and, therefore, the last remains of its
presence---across my poetry. And if that great
Christian actor, Peter Cushing, was correct in his
theology of Heaven, my grandparents' bucolically
poetic---and poetically spiritual---property will be
restored in Heaven; because, as Cushing fervently
believed (and, as the Scriptural Christian Faith teaches),
God loves us so intensely and fervently that we cannot
begin to imagine a way to fully describe it; and, in
His infinite Love for us, even the smallest joys will
become major aspects of our Heavenly, and blessedly
eternal, existence. Therefore, I believe most
certainly that my grandparents' home and the
beautiful acreage around it has not been taken over (as
upon this earth now)---by the shadowed walnut woods and
its attendant weed patch, which is now a weedy,
almost jungle-like, infestation; and the four buildings (the
residential cottage, the outhouse, the toolshed workshop, and---
oldest of the four---called Suzie's cottage;
although no one, then, remembered Suzie) having been
pulled down for subsequent ownership reasons
I cannot comprehend and certainly do not applaud---but
will be wholly, completely, and perfectly (to every detail,
especially those details I cherish most) restored; no longer
just a dying old man's memory, but a reality (in the
three earthly dimensions and, I am sure, at least
several theological dimensions) as an expression of the
Holy, Almighty and Immortal Triune God's Love,
personalized for me, even such as me, for whom,
despite my unworthiness, the Son of God, Jesus the
Christ, Messiah, Savior, Redeemer, did not hesitate to die.
Starward