Nocturnes: Christine Daae's Resentment

I rarely tell Eric what he should do.

But his consent to have that interview

with that hack, gossip mongering, Leroux

was unwise.  Now his novel proves my fear---

as I suspected and told Erik---true.

Although published as "literary" fiction,

the text is a continued contradiction

of the mostly mundane facts of our life.

Except for Erik's so-called 'ugliness---'

Leroux gives that chief emphasis, no less,

supplying motive.  I know Erik's soul---

especially when intimate---is full

of beauty, seemingly immeasurable;

and, in our private moments, pleasurable

beyond all language.  (Even if I could

find words sufficient to that task, I would

not.)  All the murders and the other crimes,

were falsely manufactured for our time's

warped fascination with sordid content---

tales always stained with human sin and strife.

Leroux once said his readers seek the most

dreadful descriptions to provide a host

of killings, tortures, and bloodshed---mayhem

like that will always sell a book to them.

Although in truth, entirely innocent;

in fiction, Erik is forced to present

a figure that the readers will despise,

created by Leroux's imagined lies.

 

ENVOI:

 

But Erik laughs, and says I should not fret:

the whole debacle is not worth one sneer.

And then he says he has brought me a gift:

a token of his love for me, to lift

my mood, and help me for a while forget 

my anger.  This has always been his way

when I am overwhelmed by some emotion---

such is his tender and profound devotion.

A pair of stockings in that wrapped box---white,

made of the finest silk, and very sheer:

so I disrobe; then, naked, put them on.

Although only an hour has passed since dawn,

I think we will be busy this whole day,

and maybe even late into the night.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

The idea in the lines prior to the Envoi has been in my mind for almost a decade.  The Envoi, unexpectedly, occured this morning as I was finishing the first part.

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