Wont Admit Your Dead

I remember exactly what you said

Your words play back inside my head

Said you loved me, I was a great friend

I never knew you life would tragically end

I didn't tell you what you meant to me

Who would have thought you'd lose your life unexpectedly

So now I'm left with words to say

I hope you will hear them some how, some way

I really miss you, the pain is strong

If I ever offened you, just know that I was wrong

Your friendship meant a great deal to me

I only hope some how you can see

So you know I wont forget

And to move on? I'm not strong enough yet

I can't stop the tears I cry

A constant question, just wondering "Why?"

You were a friend that I could confide

From your tender word my tears some how dried

Helped me out when times were bad

Calmed me down when I was mad

Something that struck me about you, my friend

I didn't know how much you meant to me until the very end

Words that I heard, words that I dread

Words I wont say, admitting that you are dead

In the city of angels, or somewhere near by

I wont let go, wont say goodbye.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Ok it's been a few months now and I still feel the pain. I guess it's never really easy when you lose a friend. I mean I can't even delete him offa my icq list. I don't want to admit that he *they* are gone, when I know that I will never see them again. It's times like this I know my friends will be there for me, now when I need them the most.

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Nikki Reents's picture

This poem really hit home for me...I lost two of my friends in a car accident Dec. 15, 2001, and I still have not found the strength to take their numbers off my cell phone, or their s/n off my buddy list on AOL. It's been almost two years, and the pain is still fresh in my mind...it is difficult, but you have really found an amazing way of putting your pain into words only a true poet could write down. I really love this one...Keep writing...
~Always
Nikki

Stephanie Cox's picture

This is a lovely poem. I'm so sorry about your great loss.
If it helps to heal, carry on writing poetry. I know it'll never bring your friend back, but remember that he is still watching you.
You're a great poet, never give it up.

kat's picture




Robin,
I definately know exactly how you feel. My friend's name is still on my
Yahoo list and AIM, still in my address book. It's like if you delete it, it's so
final. Just can't do that yet...maybe never. I have a folder just for my friend,
check it out sometime: LeVane
kat

Nicole Titus's picture

Awww!I really love this poem because it's sooooo very true! I'm still in denial, but I'm learning to accept it that some friends have passed on. I hate saying it but It's true. Thanks for sharing this poem though. I think it helped me out a lot!

Cat Deale's picture

oh schmidty, i know its awful, i miss them too
and i feel like such an ass....i was in a bad mood before it happened, and he msged me, wanted to talk...I blew him off, never knowing that it was my last time Id ever talk to him....but we cant help whats been done, that force is out of our handes and I knnow it still hurts, butt he pain goes away and you come to realize that theyre still with us, still talking, still listening, still laughing. Just because we cannot see them does not mean they ever left
peace, a friend if you need,
Kitty^Cat