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To Grandma
Everything is upside down
it feels just like books I've read
its hard to get things straight
leftover tears uncried...
spinning 'round in my head
Grandma please dont die
I wish I knew you better
I dont even know your favorite song
why didnt I go see you more?
you were there all along
but I never thought this would happen before
Now they say theres not much they can do
everyone wonders whats going on
they say machines are breathing for you
Im scared to see you in the hospital that way
we are all hoping you pull through another day
I had to deliver the latest news
before that I was fine, but to tell them hurt
It was then that I started to cry
blue stains left on my love's white shirt
more tears thinking of what christmas will be like
without you being there
I'm sure there will be a strange vibe
or some strange silence hanging in the air
What about the duct tape on the wrapping paper?
you always made us laugh
something so little made me cry most
now I feel like I'm torn in half
I hear them talking about the funeral already
but your not even dead
and everyone is getting angry
about the things the others have said
I think of grandpa
who may have to decide your fate
I think about how I never came to visit
and now it will be too late
I think about my cousin so small
shes just so innocent...
how is she taking it all?
and my other cousin
how he must be feeling
they fought a lot, does he feel guilt too?
and how is he dealing
my aunt lived with them as well
they say that shes denying
and my dad is all torn up inside
but he hides from us his crying
and this is my first experience with death
at least in closer parts of the family
how I should feel makes me confused
I wonder how this could all come to be?
Things might get better, they dont look well
I hope that you come back
then I can make up time I have missed
we can all forget about the heart attack
I'll learn things about you
that I took forgranted
The family can be happy again
the world wont be so slanted
but if you dont make it grandma
I wont be mad, but I will probably cry
I understand instead of being sick
sometimes its better to die
I'm sure God will take you
you've been a sweet lady
I will never forget when my love came
how you wrapped your arms around him and me
and the time at my house
when you all came to visit
you put your hands on my shoulders
and you, and my mom talked a bit
little things like that
even though I havent always been there
are the things that make me realize
that you really did care
I guess its true what they say
you dont know what you have til its gone
even though your still here
I cared about you all along
and all the little things I've known
and all the things I never will
shake the world all around
but at the same time make it still
because everyone is angry
but the same time so sad
everyone looking for someone to blame
but at the same time feeling bad
I guess we wait and see what happens
and hope its for the best
Though we wish we knew the truth
its something we cant guess
so for now we say a little prayer
and try to pull together
keep waiting for some more news
hoping you get better
