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Its hard to find that sparkle in a world intent of flashes

its something I cant put my heart on.

I wish I could.

but I cant. not yet.

I was broken along the way to love

and I think I dont know how to put it all back to what it used to be to be me.

it wasnt stolen. I took it back. but its in pieces.

the only way to get the scars out is to melt it all down

and let it smelter. when it reforms I have a choice over which shape I take,

but I am so afraid of the process,

I cant look at the flashes to catch the spark to light the fire.

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Whose afraid of the big bad whooosh?

 

Pressure.

that will will lead me to the sparkle of the diamond under pressure

but I just cant take the heat. and I just cant bare to be a diamond

I want to watch the sparkles eminate I dont want to toss them around everywhere.

I dont want to be a diamond. I dont need the pressure.

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©2 February 2014 - 12:17am — SSmoothie
2 February 2014 - 4:14pm — nightlight1220
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Sounds like a grueling

Sounds like a grueling process. I know you will find a way. Sometimes we shatter to find out all of our lives we have found comfort in everything but ourselves. We are conditioned through parents, teachers, and society to act upon theories we never tested or used our own reason and judgement to discern....but judged those theories through adopting the judgements of others. It leaves us with pieces of what everyone else thinks, or thought, and nothing truly we can call "our own". 

 

Amazing Ssmoothie... i pray and hope you persevere, for i am sure the end product of your struggles are going to be something to make all of us who love and respect you so very proud to say.. "yes...i know Ssmoothie... a more amazing person than i even imagined or ever would have dreamed". 

 

Let go of the shattered mess. Go with your inner flow, even if it may seem a snail's pace at first. Let nature grow you a gem "all your own"? Maybe all those broken pieces were never yours to begin with?

 

♡♥♡♥

...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

2 February 2014 - 3:59am — ashes_theartofb...
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I was broken along the way to love.

I really love that line SS!, and the ending!

Your writing is still the best in all its form. 

Hope all has been well! <3

"We are, Each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another." -Luciano De Crescenzo

2 February 2014 - 5:27am — SSmoothie
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yes and i missed you

yes and i missed you desperately :) so good to see you and your work! hugss

Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."