disillusioned

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my world is drowning in disolution.
disapointment traces every task
it doesnt miss a beat unlike this ol broken thing
its time metronomed in varied rhythmic fashions
theres not a drop of happiness to be found
with out that drop of bloody let down
theres always someone who should be there but isnt
or something lost for every gain theres no unbridalled dancing in the rain.
No monument of success thats remembered and all the effort forgotton
the big bad world will come to get you and drop you on your golden ass
and fold your spirit in half and tether the good to something bad.
the jealous are the lazy. the envious are the working.
I am just dissapointed in a so called better life...
to the victim never goes the spoils

Author's Notes/Comments: 

just feeling let down by those closest to me and those who arent close to me. theres alot of self serving people out there, how sad... I just lost faith in someone.

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Adam아담's picture

Ah...

Yeah, most people aren't selfless when on autopilot. Since you've had a couple days to think about it all... how you doing?


Cheers,
Adam_San

SSmoothie's picture

I am doing ok :)

I will let everyone in on a little secret I am passionate about education. I find it incredibly depressing that many students do not make the most of the incredible information given to them in class and that school is a social centre which of course it is. But teachers go to so much trouble to teach and have lost alot of power in the class room. were making kids into self centred self rightious and lazy "whats in it for me I am a desperate social junkie" mentality. I work in schools and although I have no problem controlling a group of teenagers and getting some great stuff out of them in workshops the teachers ask how do I do it? well it is an air of expectation. I make a very insight ful quips to bring even the most reluctant student out into perform. Its all about focus and awareness with these two things you can accomplish any thing. repitition is a teaching tool like in drama practice makes innovation after boredom. I mourn the loss of potential every day... teaching kids service compassion and dedication and how to know how to make the right choices well that should be in every curriculum. always someone out there worse off than you making a go of it. It burns me deep when so many pass away not achieving a quarter as much as they have the potential to. Hugss


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

Adam아담's picture

SSmoothie:

I think there is quite an "overflow of information" currently. We are taught so much and yet we spend so little time learning it. Learning... sucks sometimes because we are dragged through it. I think this so MUCH: "If I had time, I would read THIS book in the library and research THAT topic..."


Cheers,
Adam_San

SSmoothie's picture

yes this is true and very much a problem

high saturation and media and early development of sexual ideas the kids learn about it younger and younger these days. Time comes at the cost of something. sleep for me is often a luxury but I have to forgo it sometimes to do all the things I do. the generation gap is getting wider and poor parenting due to un structured environments dont help. I am currently writing a paper on the saturation of information in school that is readily available on the internet. if you need it you will look for it. learning needs to change a little. we need to teach the skills of finding rigorous information not wikipaedia although it is a great starting point and has many great references! anyways we Need to pair it down to the basics and learn one font at a time especially in the formative years. We currently have a high textual exposure when teaching kids to read. they are 'exposed' to lots of different writing styles and instead on seeing 24 x 2 characters caps and lowecase to memorise there are upto 180 characters to recognise in various shapes. I believe they should stick to one type of font till reading and understanding is established. the curriculum is too full and less qulatative. short attention spans do not help, I have a personal pet peeve with victorian cursive which is supposed to encourage neater writing. writing is fast becoming a lost art. touch typing has taken over. lol besides Learning something isnt always fun but it usually stems from a necessity. college is good because people who go there want thier education. the poor students that want their education in highschools every are verymuch hindered by the massive social pressures and misbehaviours in class. thanks for letting me vent. lol sprry, I run into many teens going the wrong way... it sort of sparked it . they always respond that they cant read or write well so why bother... I pray for them often. cheers SS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

vaibhav's picture

this is what life is, nice

this is what life is, nice work,
does sadness persuades introspection/?

thisisme789's picture

=( I'm sorry! I'll always be

=( I'm sorry! I'll always be here for you, whenever I can be!


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