Feelings rush around my body provoking the thoughts in my head.
The struggle to delineate right from wrong bares down on me like a heavy dark shadow carrying the weight of my misgivings.
Am I a tool furthering destructive programming from big brother?
Or
a hapless dreamer looking for silverlinings in the dark ?
From divided love and loyalties,
I swing: a pedulum of frustration and anxiety one minute and stop in apathy the next.
Perception and point of views have too many depths to dive into.
each one a murky abyss offering nothing but the promise of enduring mystery.
I throw my hands up
and still get shot anyway
I show the colour of my beliefs
and im labelled a facist
I fight for my freedom
and am labelled a racist
I respond to hatred with contempt
and im held in contempt
I fight a war that I never started
and found myself left to my own devices
The enemy laughs
as it uses our enlightenment
against us.
Delusional,
we think we're winning
Propaganda machine doesn't sleep,
always on a 24 hour need to know basis.
I stole love and I withheld it
I cried poor and never meant it
The vice in my hands told me to do it
What happens now?
In My Paranoia
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I dream a different world
I think the world has tacticity
I hope the world can see me.
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You walk around in a different world
You perceive touch in your world
You are the mirror images of your world
and believe everything you see.
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They wink at the differences
They wander around believeing the world
They live in a different truth
of hope and though, images
and belief.
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Stella L. Crews
06-25-17
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They wink at the differences
They wander around believeing the world
They live in a different truth
of hope and though, images
and belief.
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Stella L.