When I Don't Sleep

Sometimes,
when I don't sleep,
I see things, hear things,
when they start to creep.
I know they aren't real,
but as I lie waking,
they don't realize that
it's my sanity they're taking.
High heels, whispers,
thuds, and conversation
about their ability
for my world's domination.

Sometimes,
when I don't sleep,
I lie there on my bed,
face up, and weep.
I weep to the monsterous,
the loved, the hated.
I weep to the beasts.
I weep to the faded.
It will weep with wonder,
with woes by it's side.
It will weep with sorrow,
for half of it died.

Sometimes,
when I don't sleep,
I dig in my brain,
and I dig oh, so deep.
I dig for smiles,
and I rummage for good thoughts,
but I always pull out
with my stomach in knots.

I vomit.
I scream.
And by pure accident
I will bleed.
But I bleed only one shade
as brutal as my world
on a red winter day.
I yell, and it's deafening,
but I don't dare make a peep.
Of course, this only happens sometimes...
when I don't sleep.

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StevenShinofield's picture

Very well written, and highly relatable

This is very moving, I think. I understand a lot of the stuff this talks about. Quite inspiring!


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SpecialSense's picture

Thank you!

Thank you!

allets's picture

Swish Swish

Back and forth, but happiness will not hold when you have insomnia. Pookahs (6 ft tall rabbits named Harvey, m'thinks) with grenades ~~A~~