Blessed before Meth

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Spaceboy092312

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Joined: 2016/11/14

Blessed before Meth

Production, proficiency,

timing, delivery

New fuel to inspire me

Energized, tired eyes

Dumbfuck-had too many tries

Reminisce, Visualize.

My own mistakes, I scrutinize

While pain penetrates & pries

Equivalent exchange:

one lives while another dies

Losing sleep&mental peace

Imagining what would be

my newborns baby feet

Taylor's eyes&her teeth

My hair& pink cheeks

Perplexed, sad, I'm ashamed

Self destructive- poisoned brain

Life may fuck you, mine ran a train

Words ebbed before they flowed

She was unhappy & he didn't know-

Memories made, none to make.

vision blurry I need to

hurry

Myself and my addiction I hold to blame.

Endless cycle? Or can I change?

Life was better

before meth came.

-Dalmata Araña

Author's Notes/Comments:

Lost everything and every one in the last 7 months of my addiction and wrote this with the inspiration it brought me. My girlfriend of 4 years, was pregnant with our baby and we were engaged. Then she miscarried and her feelings changed. Two weeks before the wedding she realized her worth and left my ass. I'll always love you Taylor hope you know the words

echo in my head that I could never say. You've changed my happy

place to a memory, a smile, & chocolate raspberry cake taste. Never underest the Joy a summer fling could bring.