I don’t have the energy to pretend I’m happy today

I don’t have the energy to pretend I’m happy today

And I don’t mean I’ll act in an unnecessary big way
I won’t sulk in a corner, wishing I was in the middle of a freeway
And I surely won’t think of throwing someone down a stairway
You must understand what I’m trying to say
Haven’t you ever had one of those days?
When someone comes up to you with a smile
Expecting to receive a reaction that’s worthwhile
Because to them, it would be weird if you showed your true expression
They’d then mistake it for a misplaced aggression
Or maybe even a form of “great depression”
Sometimes one could be mistaken for merely “seeking attention”
Or attempting to commit some expected form of deception
When really it was just a lack of perception
On their part for expecting yet not receiving perfection.
 
Author's Notes/Comments: 

Ever had one of those days when you're just not feeling it? You don't feel like talking, you don't feel like laughing. Hell, you don't even feel like feeling. You just want to sit alone to yourself. Yet, someone comes up to you, expecting to crack a smile out of you, but is disappointed when it doesn't happen. You just don't have the energy to even force a smile at the moment. Tell 'em to come back later.

Blackwingedbird's picture

You summed it up pretty good.

You summed it up pretty good.