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It's a sad mix of chemicals

Leading me to believe

That life is difficult

So what can I do?



I put up effort to engage

A simplyfied emotion

But all I get is a wall

And a hard picture of doubt



So I relent to ignoring it

And then it makes life harder

Trying to get my attention

Trying to get me to bite



I get this image in my head

Of resentment, forcing me out

I know the truth is pity

Do I get the pity I deserve?



So once again I serve this loop

Of stimulant imbalance

It makes emotion rampant again

My solace no longer found



Should I fight it? You say

No, that would make the imbalance stronger

The dividing line from happiness worse

They get perspective amusement when I bite



So a childs brain amused without decease

And an adults brain reduced to animosity

Through this tired web I'm stuck

Until I move out or die



Regime I now set for myself

Out of drugs (if I must)

Out of gods (faith was weak)

Out of hope (I need it)



I must fight for myself

Not against the imbalance

But to ignore it

And wait for the rising sun



Patience and Virtue my strongest suits

I sit and wait and hope and pray

Pray to myself



I will be strong

I will fight through this



I will not die...