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I love you

All I want to do is be with you and tell you 

Because right now and for the past weeks

I have not loved myself. 

I have loved you so much more than I could ever love myself, 

And I want you to know. 

But you say that we are together too often-

And that our conversations are scripts-

And when I reach my hand out, 

You pat it away. 

I know this. 

I am not stupid but right now, I feel dumb

I am holding onto something that isn't there anymore

You say you want things to go back to the way they were 

You say you do not like routine

You say routine is an ugly word

But I try to surprise you

But my surprises are now expected

And I find comfort in your presence

While you stray from mine

We always leave with an I love you

But that may just be another routine for you

And I stay behind in tears

Because there is no other way I can even express how I feel

And you smile and crack a joke

You believe everything is okay

And I nod, my face hidden

Agreeing with you

I tell you how I feel about you

And you repeat my words back to me

I smile with all of my teeth

I'm so happy

But it's bittersweet

Because you are turning into a mirror 

Of all the things I have done wrong

And all of the lies I tell myself

When you ask me to speak

I'm silent

I don't want you to see that I've been crying

And no words come out

All I can think of are questions to ask you

And they all seem to be about me

At home

Everyone is yelling 

And everyone shows me how selfish I am

We used to think the other was perfect 

And now we recall the days when everything was good

But when everything was good, 

Maybe it wasn't the whole truth

Thankfully, you are just as perfect to me 

No matter your flaws

Which

By the way

Are few. 

On the other hand, I can't look myself in the eye. 

I see you dance with her and pick her up with ease 

I see you smile and laugh around our other friends

I see you create beautiful melodies on your own

But when you are with me, I drag you down with me 

Maybe it is best to let you go, for you.