Dear God,
Why have you let these things be done to me?
I've loved you all my life
But now I'm not so sure.
Dear God,
Don't be angry at me for my questions
I'm only trying to find a peace I've been denied
Why have you denied me this peace?
There's so many questions left unanswered
There's so much pain left unexpressed
Everything just hides deep inside in the darkness
Where only chaos can reside.
I'm lost with nowhere left to run-
Nowhere left to hide
Life is attacking me from every side
Threatening to destroy me in their midst.
Dear God,
Do you love me anymore?
The world seems so much colder now
So I think you've taken your love away from me.
Dear God,
There's so many things you've left undone
Leaving my life all in shambles
Is this what you really want?
I'm reaching out my arms
Trying to grab hold of your arms, your legs, or your feet
Anything I can hold on to
So I won't fall down any farther.
Please take a hold of my hands
And life me from this painful place
I cannot climb out on my own
I need a helping hand.
Dear God,
Why have you forsaken me?
Through all the times I have cried for you
This is the one time I truly need you to answer me.
Dear God,
Forgive me for what I am about to do
For it may be the only sin of mine
That will send me into hell's cold grasp.
December 13, 2000
Wow! This was amazing, I wish i could count all the times i've felt exactly what the poem said. It's good she didn't go through with it. It's great that you can write such a touching poem like that.