A Higher Frequency

It has become painfully clear to me..

that I am not as good of a friend as I thought I was..

Nor am I as good of a person as I'd like to be..

I've come to this realization through my closer walk with God..

Here lately my life has gone through a lot of rapid and spontaneous changes..

it's been, beautiful, heartbreaking, and has caused me to ask some very deep and intense questions about God, myself, my relationships, and this journey we call life..

I find it amazing how we can live looking only through OUR eyes thinking, with often bias reasoning, and speaking from our conditioned heart.. forgetting to consider that although we may hold some important truths it is not THEE Truth..

And all though we may feel we are right about what we say and do..

perhaps we are right for the wrong reasons..

And maybe a better way of handling things is available..

but for whatever reason we don't choose it..

Today I'm openly choosing a better way and I'm making different choices..

I TRULY choose God over ALL else..

And I'd like to apologize to all those that I LOVE so dearly, all those who I have befriended, and all who have loved and befriended me..

I thought I was a good friend..

I thought my love was a great love..

But God has shown me that I can be so much more and so much better and that no One's love amounts to anything if it is not derived from God's nature..

So I know my behaviors have not always matched my core beliefs or the contents of my heart and in some cases I even allowed my

emotions to guide me instead of waiting for my head to clear so I could be lead by Gods will imparted into my heart..

I ask for forgiveness and I also forgive.. the known as well as the unknown because everything becomes purpose,full when it is given to God..

I am definitely a work in progress..

But I am aware that God is the Supreme Being overseeing it ALL..