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It is a refreshing feeling.  This euphoria; Ah euphoria!  This bliss of release.  I have never known such pleasure as this.  The pleasure of pent up feelings drifting away.  I feel so free.  So open.  So light and unburdened.  I'm floaty and light.  I feel like I should break out into song and dance, like this is some sort of musical.  

I know no other way to describe this than the ultimate release, and emotional orgasm if you will.  It is blissful, having this feeling of being able to show my emotions.  Not bottling them up like I have for the past 17 years of my life.  No more!  I will be free from oppression of my emotions.  They will no longer control me and hamper me from within.  

I haven't felt this good for quite some time now.  I am amazed at my ability to reaffirm my will to live.  I haven't given up.  Not yet.  Kick me while I'm down if you must, but I will eventually rise up and fight back.  It's just a matter of time.  Rise and Resist!

It's time I fully realized the extent of who I am and be who I am and not be afraid to stand up for myself.  I don't have to take it!  And from this point onward I do solemnly swear that I will do my best to not bottle everything up to the point of explosion.  And may the gods help me see when it be wiser to keep my mouth shut than open it, but may they also help me to determine when it's okay to have an outburst.  Don't let me shun outbursts just because they are wrong.  Because, honestly, are they so wrong?  Why should I not express myself.  It is human nature after all.  

For the first time in my life I've fully realized that it's allowed to be about me.  I'm allowed to do stuff for myself, to keep my own mental balance.  I'm allowed to make it all about me.  That's human, to care about yourself.  I'm allowed to put myself first.  And this is the first time I've ever fully comprehended that.  

It is nice to have finally taken some advice.  To have finally acted on advice.  I realize now, there are those out there who really do have my best interests at heart.  They aren't all out to get me.  I feel so much better now.  I feel like so many good things have been on around me.  But I've been so blind!  I've let them all pass me by.  I hope I haven't missed too many of them, but even so, now is the time for me to catch up.  I'll just leap right into the thick of things so I don't miss anything else.  It's never to late to pick up the pieces and start anew.  

I may feel remorse and maybe a little bad for what I have done.  But by no means do I regret it.  For if I had not acted as I had, then I would not feel as I do now.  And I enjoy the way I feel now.  I enjoy this bliss.  So it needed to be done.  It needed to happen.  And if for some reason I was not sure of this myself, there have been many who have told me they concur.  They agree that yes, it was bound to happen.  Took awhile in coming, but it was bound to happen. To all of you who feel that I should stay this way, have confidence in myself, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  And for those of you who don't, well, you don't matter anyways.  I'm willing to move on from people like that.  I'm willing to give myself a second chance at this great experiment called Life.