i once met a man in another state
to everything i said this man could relate
his life had been rich with hardships and pain
his life he transformed to get out of the rain
this man had my mind and my thoughts and my heart
he said the right things and these legs he did part
don't know why i let this old scoundrel come in
and rip out the healing from hurt and from sin
he touched me as deep as his tool would allow
i didn't catch on to his plan until now
to run interference in faith and in love
insuring that i could not rise above
invisble glass ceilings were placed in my way
and acquaintances came to guide me astray
to wrap me in lust and place me in hands
that would pull me back down with sexy demands
why don't i resist those gorgeous blue eyes
why don't i understand to succeed, you must try
why can't i let go of the memories sublime
why can't i remember what happened last lifetime
it hasn't been worthy of all my disgust
believing no man even ME i can't trust
available and open to helping another
even if it means eternally i will be smothered
i sacrifice things that i truly need
never looking down to see if i bleed
I am torn i am broken yet i still absorb
the pangs of the past and the rep of a whore
a whore i am not a bitch some might say
but i can't be those things as much as i pray
and it's heard and it's answered i may be confused
being passed around freely just used and abused
a sponge to take shock a mat to walk over
just numbed by this life that i strive to "get over"
but i still see those eyes that once pierced my soul
that i must overcome to achieve all my goals