i take this day to heal myself
today, the day my heart jumps off the shelf
365 days, only* 2 to be free
separation from the world to truly feel me
i want to shake off the the gloom and the pain
but all the sunny skies make no room for rain
it tears one down to smile all the time
when smiling is not what's on their mind
shaking off the glee of life
trading it for joy through strife
taking tests on why i'm me
to run on through eternity
happy lasts for a split moment
joy is what is permanent
clean my wounds as they bleed
clean my life for my seed
sidestepping new opportunities
for lovers associates and smoking trees
clinging tight to relationships that feel
discerning the difference between fake and real