It never seems to fail that I fall to someone else's desires.
Complying to wishes for one being;
When I'd never dream of doing so for myself.
Lessons in stubbornness lost utterly on me;
While I give in,
Allowing myself to be used without complaint.
As someone observing the slow migration of time,
And the peculiar behaviour of man;
I wait.
Nothing seems to pierce the soft tender flesh,
Or the thin, filmy encasement of my skin;
Only because I am aware.
Deceit and betrayal are no longer strangers to me;
And I await their infrequent visits with bated breath.
With the lyric structure I recount much of what is lost during REM;
Vapid bouts of stale consciousness,
Streaming through with a deliberate air.
So much time is spent in disenchantment,
That illusion is left to flower;
While in disembodiment I begin to bud.
2:4:02; 9:30 pm
I can totally relate to these words, I think in many ways it comes of being female that we get used and abused like we are mere toys for men to play with. I personally sit very uncomfortable with that notion, yet still even I succumb to the abuse more often than not. A very good poem.