Think of it
Yes-
Dream of it
Those nights
when you wake up from
those old familiar dreams
Like when I was at her house
shut and locked the bathroom door
found her knife
and fell against the bathroom door
and prayed she'd call to me
and what would I say
what should I say
I'm sorry for the stains
I'd get them out if I could
Oh yes- wish for it
Those empty days when you're
driving off to nowhere
and it doesn't really matter anymore
so close your eyes
lift your hands
and run the car
into a fucking tree
No one has to know
they'll just think I lost control
I guess I did
and I won't have to leave a note behind
Put your wrists to the razor
and sing a requiem
in a hotel bathtub
candles burning everywhere
my favorite song on the radio
Lay down and find the vein
that sets you free
kiss the blade
savor the taste
cold metal drifting over your tongue
stroke it with your lips
trace it with your
trembling fingertips
Sweep it down and over your wrists
Yes-
think of it
dream of it
So many plans
how to make it perfect
So grand so beautiful so decadent
taking over everything
with bleeding wrists
or maybe I'll stand tall
spread my arms
close my eyes and I'm flying
open them and I'm falling
Yes-
think of it
dream of it
lust for it
But never do it.