So this is how it is
and this is how it was
for me on the day
I read your letter
the one you let everyone see
And it's strange to say
that I've given up
thought I'd always love you
but maybe you're right
and I never loved at all
Just wasted nights
quiet suicidal dreams
where you hold hands
with me
So when I read you letter
I walked up the stairs
praying no one would notice
Up the stairs
but there's no door to the roof
Believe me
all I wanted was
to swing my legs out over the edge
Oh don't worry
those who threaten suicide
never jump
and it may not be high enough anyway
But I want to go there
just in case
Look at the sky
dream a little
and once you hit the ground
it doesn't mean anything
Love, it's never enough only to bleed for you
and I know I should stop the bleeding
but I don't want to
Though I know to you I'm nothing
You can't look past my eyes
to find my soul
if I still have one
for it may have been captured by you
on that day we danced
foolishly
in the lightning and the rain