I'm so sorry
I forget the secret special name
christened to you by only me
I know you remember everything
It's so hard to remember
even just to breathe
when you look me in the eye
and I can't look in the mirror
ashamed of what I'd see
So how do I tell you
when I dance with you
I don't care who sees
and how do I explain that
I didn't hear
that I couldn't believe
you'd love a whore like me
Someone like me
who never knows the right words
who forgets each precious moment
spent together
just to hear you breathe
God I wish I held your held
Held like you were drowning
Pulled you up and breathed
my life into your caving lungs
Instead of watching them collapse
I should have stood and told them all
that love knows no gender
only the heart and soul
I should have held your hand
and followed wherever you would lead
And it doesn't matter
that they'll destroy me
because you'll be there
to hold my hand
and mend my broken wings