My mind is ill
there is no cure
Insanity has
tightened its grip
on my brain
Once I knew but now
the light is gone
So many questions
so few answers
I cannot live
among the dead
We are all dead
It is too late.
Why do we live?
The unrelenting darkness
is inside my head
obscuring the light
Death is all I see
My dreams haunt me
My mind kills me
slowly draining the
life out of me
this is not me
I died a long
time ago
My mind is empty
and my soul has
fallen into eternal slumber
My heart has frozen
never to be warmed
I am but a shadow
of what I once was
Is this my fate?
To die a thousand deaths
each day?
I die
my bloody death
once more
I walk the lonely streets
at night
wondering if tomorrow
will come before
Death's arms pull me to
my lonely grave again
I ask the midnight moon
and speechless stars
but recieve no answer
no voice to guide me
from above
There is no god
Truth- it still evades me
though I can see it
through the blinding fog
just beyond my fingertips
Oh if only I could reach...
but it is too far
and the night is so dark
Puposeless
continual existence
Just breathing in air
but there is no meaning
Is there no meaning?
I am searching
under the mindless
midnight moon
smiling in the sky
I cannot reach
I am too small.
I am searching
for myself
my now departed soul
has fled too far
Oh if only I could reach...
Remember-
but I cannot see
my mind is blind
the door is closed
and time runs on
until the end
which will soon come.
Every breath
one less that
I have left
Every heartbeat
is closer
to the last
Every second
nearing the grave
I see the tombs
of those who've passed
I implore them-
Can not one of you help me?
Can not one of you hear my cry?
Can not one of you ease my pain?
Can you show me the way?
But they are fools
knowing less than I
They can't love me
They can't soothe me
They can't heal me
Can you love me?
But is there love
Love I've never known
in a universe so vast
And I am but one
small insignificant being
Among millions
I keep walking with you
without direction
Lost souls
making a
confused and frenzied
path unto the end
A part of me
is missing
I left it
somewhere on
this road we make
paving it with tears
it left me
on a moonless night-
My soul
I feel I am
drowning in
the ocean of man's tears
that never seem to end
Will we ever find
each other,
my body and my soul?
The thoughts
inside my head
they are not mine
No matter how I try
to shut them out
I can still hear
They speak to me
They tell me that
I'm damned
and their laughter
Oh the laughter
full of hatred and disease
I laugh no more