These verses
mere words
can never
fully digress my meaning
Try to understand
It is not pain
It is not hopelessness
which drives me into madness
It was not weakness
It was not desperation
which led me to my death
But temptation
the fulfillment of
a morbid curiosity
I only wanted to feel
Erotic
was Death's first caress
the quickening of my pulse
at each sensation
Intimate
was Death's knowlege of my body
touching my most private parts
reading my most private thoughts
Passionate
were Death's arms around me
Losing blood
Losing life
Swooning at Death's kiss
Fainting falling
No- it is not over yet
This is the ultimate experience
do not close your eyes
Blissful
was the last cut of the knife
Death loving me
undressing my soul
stroking my body
blessing my blood
Delicious
was the last breath
Fearing wondering loving
savoring Death's intensity
the pleasure of pain's perfection
Yet still you can not understand
You will never understand
how it feels to be loved by Death
to be with Death under
the blood drenched sheets.