Capillaries
dead end lanes
like half remembered
half written dreams
things not always
as they seem
Body broken
body bled
Words unspoken
legs that spread
Warm or cold
the worms eat dead
Remember
not what I have said
Remember this-
I also bled
Forgiving me
inside you glide
Holy father
you slip inside
Making it easy
like closing my eyes
I pulled the trigger
and I told you the lies
But you- it's you
who wanted me to
Pull this trigger
send this bullet to you
for something bigger
but I took one too
And those nails
imbed your skin
I wonder what
sick play I'm in
A sacrifice, a sacred sin
nailed to my cross
you've always been
You were my Jesus Christ
Does that make me
Judas then?
I kissed you goodnight
in Gethsemane
I kissed you goodnight
betrayed you
betraying me
and your requiem
without a song
the night was dreary
the fight was long
I cried clearly
Lord- you're wrong
Watching as
the sun went down
you weren't the only one
who drowned
You kissed my lips
I closed your eyes
You're not the only one
who dies