baby can you hear me?
you were carried
out of the room
as you lay still
your face angelic
a trace of quiet smile
with lips a rose red
i’ve got big dreams for you
like your mama too
i want to carry you
hold you in my arms
to walk with you
and bring you to places you would love
i want to hear your little voice
as you utter my name
to kiss and tickle you
and do silly things together
i want to buy you little things
clothes with mermaids and stars on them
to clip your hair with pink studs of pearls
to read you stories of fairies and fair maidens
all these and more
so i stared long and hard
anticipating that first cry
but silence prevails
my eyes brim with tears as i utter
welcome baby
though we wouldn’t
see you again.