In a deep state of depression.
The feelings wittled you to the bone,
sharpen to a sense far higher
than buddhists achieve with enlightenment.
This sharpening takes a deep toll.
No longer take rest when you lay down at night.
You close my eyes to wake but seconds later.
No rest shall ever come.
Never anight of sleep since sharpening.
Only way to find sleep in life again...
Inflict a great deal of physical harm upon me,
subsequently causing me to lay unconscious for hours on end. So please do harm me give me some release.