Mean

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Isn't it funny how everything is o.k.

untill you say you love me

and I know that's not what you mean.

Everything is so different

when you move so far away

but the pain still remains

in all that I know of you.

That night, I knew it was bad

when your hand gripped up my throat.

O God, I couldn't even breath.

And I realized it was so bad

when I turned to see...blank.

O God, I couldn't even see.

How could you be so mean?

Why did you do this to me?

When I stepped out on the curb

and then you followed me.

I know you've never seen me cry.

Untill then, I never shed a tear.

Why did it come from you then?

I know that's what you mean.

You were there, in my house

after all we went through.

And they all just stared with me at you.

So we walked down the steps.

Sitting limp with no intentions

to spoil my special day.

I never knew what pain really was

untill you made the worst day.

You don't know what I mean

when I say it's for the best.

If I say I love you,

that's what I mean.

When I say I'm not in love with you,

that's what I mean.

You're just ganna have to deal

with all I have said I feel.

And I'm just ganna have to face

that you're just a fucking discrace.

If I say I hate you,

that's what I mean.

Whe you ask me why I act this way,

It's exactly to be mean.

I know you're sorry, as am I.

It's just exactly what we mean.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

17th birthday...worst day of my entire life because a guy that I once loved (but not anymore) ruined my day with his own poison.

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