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99 steps forward, one step back

And before you know it, I’m back at the start.

This road isn’t new to me, I know where it goes

But I press on like I wasn't just right here 

same spot a moment ago, and just like before 

i know where it goes, so what is it for? 

Muddy shoes and a dirty a face

Falling with every step, nothing like grace

i used to know how to sing, i forgot how to dance 

confused I feel lost, it's cold out here without your embrace 

How many times do I have to break

Just to feel whole, I want it to never fade away

Running away from the monster I face in the mirror each  day

I only want to run forward, I only want to feel at home

I've always felt like a queen in chains, destined for a throne 

Despized for my inheritance, my kingdom couldn't be over thrown 

so they use fear to limit power, hated made me humbly grown 

I take nothing for granted, I think before every turn 

I used to fear the world, i realize now it was mine to rule

i wanted to prove them wrong, so I used their hate to learn

I was born with the right, but the kingdom I still had to earn 

i just want to laugh and be free but also kept and have 

I was fightting hate, but calling a war on love

i just wanted to be wanted, and I wanted to be enough 

cuz all my life ive been belittled, I just couldn't get it right 

I always fell short even when I gave all my might

but somehow you came to me in my worst darkness at night

you shined a lamp in my fear; and every tunnel has a light

my eyes wouldn't adjust from the dark i was blinded because it was too bright 

I just had your voice to follow, and you whispered it'll be alright 

now I'm in the wilderness with no survival skills 

no prescriptions but Im still having to take pills

slowly poisoned because love kills

but i keep coming back still 

because an addict with a drug has no will 

Lost in the needle, losing myself in the flame

Im playing with death every time i feel it in my vain

but it doesn't matter as long as you're not in my brain

for a moment I'm alright but it all end the same

trying every love potion, but I end up drinking pain 

But that doesn’t matter i repeat when I wake up again

drugs expanded my mind I though they would make me sane

turns out I was normal before, the drugs made me insane 

good thing pain makes you wiser, that's all I gainEd

Its all that on my mind and my heart

I just wanna feel whole, but I just feel dark

i wanted to make a difference, instead you left a mark

i Took you so many places but I left myself in park 

you took off with all that I gave you, left me with none 

my love would grow daily, now love made me grown 

i never Saw love so i would love blindly, I made myself known 

im Not blind anymore because love made itself shown 

man I just want to find a home somewhere 

I just wanna feel like im not crazy anymore

i don't need to learn to fly, I just want to soar 

But you spoon fed me, and it kept me coming for more 

and i would kod out and moments I don't remember 

what was all of this for? 

I went so far and took one step back

Landed on my feed each time that I fell

How much longer do I have to break before I feel whole again

how many more times will I sink inside of myself

get lost dreaming inside of my bed

swimming invisibly inside of my head

I just wanna finally feel free

But im one hundred steps forward only to trip and fall all the way back down.

you told me not to make you look a fool, 

so you had me played like a clown

we used to swim together but you left me to drown

i gave you my heart and you tried me, now I'm.a lost soul 

duck you nigga, I shouldda kept myself in control 

you We're my king I put you on a throne, you took my  crown