Author Information
Insanity
I cry but you don’t hear me
My tears are only echos
You’ve been caught red handed
But still you lie straight to my face
Like we didn’t just spend years together
Like we are strangers after all
Just know that I still love you
But I know you better than anyone
You refuse to see how you hurt me
Sorry doesn’t come out of your mouth
While I’m left confused and desecrated
Parts of me that died leaves a nasty stench
You have no issue pointing fingers
And keeping a record of all my flaws
And as you keep digging deeper
Your reflection perfectly flawless in the mirror
While I’m left to do all the forgiveness
As I’m walking on broken glass
It would be nice to hear you say you’re sorry
That even you can go wrong too
But I’m only left with excuses
Trying to make it up to you
I want to enjoy your presence
But the pain it gets worse
I want to feel your tenderness
But your words are bitterly harsh
Can you just try to listen
The way that I listen to you
I try to to be open minded
But I struggle to understand
And even though my chest is burning
I comprise to let it end
Raised voices cut like rusted knives
Time consumed in rage and anxiety
Is like we wasted the best moment of our lives
I just want to be embraced,
But revenge is your greatest tool
I opened my walls as I begged you
But I’m left just like a fool
For having hope that may be this is over
That may be the fight will cease
But you’re quick to pick it up
And start back where it calmed with ease
I’m left with the heavy burden
While you’re out there carelessly free
And as I’m thinking and calling you
I wonder if you’re purposely ignoring me
These words are the only tools I hold
To say the words inside my mind untold
My heart sinks a little deeper
As past memories unfold
Reminding me of where we stood
And how close it all is
And I begging to wonder
If there’s something I still miss
Hopelessly I’m reaching out
To you but you hold only doubt
You let your resentment grow
While I’m left to simply watching all of me flow
Loosing bits and pieces of who I am
I wonder if you even care or want to know
All the compromises I keep making
While apparently the sacrifice is you
I wonder if you take pleasure
Watching me as I fall apart
There’s a monster inside you, you told me from the start
I was stupid to believe that my love can change you
As I willingly keep following you in the dark
And you seem to not mind that we bring out
Each other’s worst
We can’t seem to stay away from each other
I used to think it love but it’s a curse.
I’m screaming inside my mind loosing it
You say that I am childish and throwing a fit
But it takes two tango, I’m not alone in this dance
You only see my shadow while I asphyxiate
On your full face
I crave you in these moment, when I’m even more weak
But pride seems to be more important
Than the healing that we seek
And it takes over wildly
Even at times I cave in
But you were always stronger
And you will always win
And I wonder how much longer, till I fully die within
