You are so far away, yet so close. And that is what hurts the most. I can almost feel you now, whispering "I love you" as you drift off to sleep. I can almost feel you rub my back as I cry into the pillow, aching in pain. I can almost kiss you goodnight. Almost. But you are not here and at this moment, almost is not enough. There is a hole inside me that cannot be filled with anything except your love. I can try to fill the void with social obligations, studying, writing, music...but it is a band-aid. The wound is still present, growing deeper and deeper with each day that we are separated. For I do not know why the universe does not want us together. It seems cruel, really. To give someone a glimpse of heaven-of hope- only to rip it away in an instant. I try to grab onto it but it is gone before I get the chance. It is useless. I am helpless, as usual. I must endure this pain, wasting away from you day after day…night after night.
Absence makes the heart grow
Absence makes the heart grow stronger, and in the case of separation it's a knife to the heart. Well written and best of luck to you.
Long days and pleasant nights
Diamond