We woke up, that day, to
shrill sounding alarms
that
broke the myth we had
been pretending.
The dog snuggles closer to us
as we draw apart
and wonder why we
exchanged vows.
Do you remember the grey stoned
Church we attended, the same
one where we were married?
I am thinking of it now, its' stain
glassed windows glistening in
the shining sunlight.
Altar of stone as hard
as our distaste for
one another.
I wonder what it would be
like to visit this place again?
Would the shuffled memories come
crashing like incense burners
into the heart? Or would it
be empty and silent
as the words of
love we no longer
remember?
I wake up to a tiny
glistening of memories
that flicker like a
computer screen
across the picture frame
I've put around my
feelings for you.
They are so mixed up and
unexplainable.
Yes, I suppose there will always
be this lifting entrance of
a love song that
will play in my thoughts
at the mention of your name.
But like most things,
the song is old
and not contemporary,
reflecting nothing but
a taste of something
I no longer have to eat.
Mixed with this oldie is
a new tune of jangling
anger that burdens
any attempt to
enshrine your name
in my being.
Nudged into my
shrouded collection of
photographs is an old
hint of nostalgia.
It stays about as long
as the ringing of the
telephone.
Answering it, nobody answers
me, which is fairly much like
the words we now use
with one another.
They are polite and strained
and like the city
around us, the isolation
is constant.
I am old enough now
to accept that
the fickle heart
is never happy with
what it has. It is always
seeking things it is
not familiar with.
That is you now. A
comfortable place I like
to recall from time to time.
Like the silent morning
in the church before the people
arrive to pretend
their faith.
Vous êtes un génie. Un
Vous êtes un génie. Un artiste vrai.
Vive le Quebec libre!