You reject me.
However sensitively,
You reject me.
That hurts.
So much.
Eye-burning, mind-crushing
Body- bruising hurt.
Soul- numbing pain,
Searing white- hot pain.
I gasp and try to will
Breath, heart beat.
I walk for hours
Working off humiliation,
Unhappiness.
Finally a tiny flame of anger emerges
And resolution-
Protective armour.
Cool disinterest becomes
Ingrained.
It is a façade
And now I hate
Myself.
Shattered hopes
Stifled love.