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How can I give you what you need when you don’t even know what it is?
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2015
I don’t know if I want to work this out anymore
I did know
and I knew
and I knew
and I knew
right up until the point where you called yesterday and asked to talk
not because you missed me, or because you were ready, or because you wanted to hear what I had to say about us, this break, or your absence
but because you had been expecting to talk, working yourself up to talk, prepared yourself to talk
not about us, or how I am doing, or what this is like for me, or what you’ve discovered in the space
not about if this is really working for us, or if we are ready to re-evaluate
not about anything which matters or which needs to be said
not about the things we agreed we wouldn’t talk until we were ready to talk about them
You called to talk about how things were, to listen to my stories of school and life, to have the kind of conversation we’d have if we were still together,
and it made me realise that I don’t know if I want to work this out anymore
because once again, here you are, actions not matching your words
This is so relatable. I know
This is so relatable. I know exactly where you were in this moment and it was a friggin brilliant write. You're amazing woman!
"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.
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k, first, I am sorry you can relate to this, that sucks! Hang in there, breathe deep and often, and hopefully you figure out where your lines need to be drawn and then draw them... <3
second, thank you, I feel like brillaint is a heavy word for this poem and yet I am not the one who gets to decided how 'good' it is to you, so thank you.
:) and, third, it takes ana amzing woman to know an amazing woman ;) you my dear, are a beautiful human being! don't ever forget that and don't let the women who take you for granted take that knowledge from you!
Much Love
Ashley
I heart you. I won't, I
I heart you. I won't, I promise. Same to you. You are a stellar individual and do not ever let any guy make you feel less than extraordinary.
"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.
:)
it's a deal! *hand shake*
Much Love
Ashley