I can't explain it but it seems i can't control this sadness that consumes my soul. I try to think of moments past to get me through and allow me to be free at last. I try to force a smile on my face, but it just doesn't mask when I'm feeling inside. I know this feeling because I've felt it before. It just seems that this time is not like the ones before. I only hope that soon this feeling will go away. Cause I seriously feel that feeling this way just one more day, will make me feel like giving up hope.