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Sometimes I wonder if I can really trust you and if you really love me. I believe you when you say you do but there's that part of me that can't fully believe it. I've been hurt and I've been lied to, so it's not you.. it's me. I won't let what happened in my past affect our possible future but honestly.. I can't help but wonder. I don't think you would hurt me and I don't think anything that I worry about is really anything to worry about at all. But I have a few walls built up that some people just have to get through. I'll give you as much of a chance as I feel you deserve and really love you. And I do trust you. But there's still that part of me that will constantly wonder and I will be worried. I don't want to get hurt again, so naturally I'm going to be scared. Scared that there will be yet another bad memory, another shatter in my fragile glass heart. And I've had enough of that. I don't know where all this will go and I don't know if it will really last. But I do know that I want it to last, and if it doesn't.. than I want it to be as painless as possible when the end draws near. That's all I really ask. That I don't feel pain anymore. I sometimes feel like I'm numb inside but really I'm not, I'm still in pain but I push it away so that I can actually smile for once. A real smile. And you give me that when you say and do the things you do. And the way you look at me.. there is something that tells me you truly care and truly love me. I love you more than anything and there isn't a time that I don't mean that. But the times when you say the same to me.. there is a slight thought of wonder.. I wonder if you truly mean it. And I want to ask questions but I'm afraid you'll think I don't trust you. And that's not what I want. I want you to tell me the truth and make me believe you. I want you to prove me wrong. That's all I've ever asked of anyone. To prove me wrong of my worries and doubts and fears. Because I don't want to feel like I can't trust anyone...