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I won't let you control my future. I won't let you affect who I am so much that I become more and more angry. What you did will never be forgiven but I have to forget. I can't let it keep pissing me off every time it comes back. I'm not going to be reminded of how stupid I felt over and over again. I hate that it always comes back into my head and the anger and regret and feelings of stupidity all come flooding back. I just want it to become a distant memory NOW. I can't wait anymore. I try so hard to push it back down and think of something better. But there's evidence of these stupid mistakes all around. No matter how hard I try, it won't ever be erased. But I can try my damn hardest to see that it is. I've had other stupid mistakes and they've all gone. I barely remember them now. So why do these seem to still be hanging on for awhile? How will it take before they're almost completely gone? I hate you for what you did to me. And now I hate you even more for what's happening now. But someday soon it will be just another miserable memory, a memory that I wished I could completely delete from existence. But this won't ever happen.. and I hate you so much for it. I hate to say it but if you were wiped off the face of the Earth anytime soon, it wouldn't affect me. I wish I could get my own revenge.. but I'll let karma take care of you. Because I know that I have no power as a human compared to the spiritual demons that are going to ruin your life. That karma that keeps constantly kicking you down and down to the point where you feel you have no one.. that's your punishment for everything you've ever done. Not just to me but to everyone else. Everyone of your victims. And you may not feel like you did anything wrong or that you deserve this.. but deep down you know you do, and you know how it's all going to end. You may not know it now and you may not even admit it but you're going to go down. And no one will be coming with you...