Too Sane For Insanity?

Sitting in the corner, waiting
I'm waiting for my life to start
But everyone just keeps taking
They're ripping my life apart
I never thought I'd be the one
The one who's taken the fall
I never thought I'd come undone
And start bashing my head into the wall
I always thought it was too hard
Too hard to be this way
But now the mind is simply marred
And forever like this I shall stay
Simple tragedies keep me broken
I'm crazy without a reason
Do you think that this was something chosen?
I hate you all for committing treason
Why did you betray me?
Why do I feel so painful?
I'm not doing this on purpose, can't you see?!
Living my life normal, I am unable
Denial is the first stage
Anger is the second
I am so filled with pity and rage
And thanks for the help that I had beckoned
You don't realize what I see
You don't understand what I feel
All my life people have hurt me
All this insanity is anything but real
But you don't listen to my voice
And you just walk away
I swear to God this wasn't my choice!
But I won't live to the end of today...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Sometimes I wonder if it's possible for me to become insane. I have been hurt many times in my life and I wonder if I'll slowly fall. I still trust people and give people chances, but I wonder if this will last forever. I don't think I could ever really be crazy, but what I'm trying to say in this poem is that it's all too easy. It's something that just suddenly happens. You have no warning and no one else does, you just snap. The way the world is today, sometimes I wonder if it's something possible for me.

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BlackRabbit's picture

don’t worry

its ok, you wont fall. vie fallen before and it was so bad that it traumatised me. i forget everything bad thats ever been done to me. i touch the burning kettle twice. from reading your poems, i feel that you wont fall. you cant. i know you wont because you seen confused between the difference in being insane and going crazy.
The difference between insanity and craziness is that insanity requires intelligence, while craziness requires stupidity.
you are not going to fall because i believe that you are not crazy because youre smart enough to express your emotions, and not so smart to not know the difference between the two. Bottom line is, you’re not going to fall.

Always there but never noticed,
Alice in the underworld