I want to be drunk
or stumbling stoned
- silently nodding on white heroin -
or better still,
morphine will create a space
where past and future have no place
- the back path of being /
synthetic reality -
ageless, genderless, no sexuality
- beyond hurting myself or anyone else -
a neutral zone
/ a deconstructed home.
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But there is little doubt
that I will do without
- too flat on the floor to actually score /
too full of fear to rise from here -
will simply roll over
and go back to sleep,
a sleep so deep it will last for years.