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I look into the water
And wonder
How it would feel
If I drowned myself
How would my body
React?
How would it look?
Would I float?
Or would I sink?
These are the questions
My mind asks me as I sit
In this hot tub
After a very stressful,
Exhausting
Day
To come home and
Be accused of making someone
Feel uncomfortable in my own home
When they are just here as a temporary
Guest
I'm made to feel as if I
Am the bad person in my own home
Now I must talk,
Entertain,
And hang out on my days off
When all I wish to do is have some alone
Time to my self
Now I'm a bad person
Because on my days off I
Want to be alone
I'm a bad person
Because I have anxiety,
PTSD,
And BiPolar disorder
Now I have to do
Things I wish not to do on
My days off
Granted I understand
That their are things that need to be done
Because I am an adult
But I do things my way
Yet...
I'm the bad person because
I do things my way
And at my own pace
So as I sit
Here in this tub
My mind wonders
To places I do not
Like