Dissatsifaction plagues my mind
Bulimic tendencies
Purging until there's nothing left to "repair"
My mind shattered into fragments
Stare in the mirror until my reflection is sick of looking at me.
Repeat and recycle this process
Pushing my body to the brink
All else irrelevant except the constant
strive for the perfect physique
But no matter the strain I place on myself
It will never come to fruition in my mind
So I am plagued, all self-inflicted
Plagued in a world full of comparisons and judgement
If only I could realize I am to blame
If I could realize I'm hurting myself more than helping
But I keep doing the same
Then I feel so guilty
So kill me
Just kill me.
Post introspection ...
Take a quiet moment
Look into your heart
Say hello and thank you
Feel the warmth inside
Breathing in the sweet
Offered back in kind
Thank your heart with love
For beating all the time
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