Here I sit.
Thoughts fill my mind.
I feel alone and left behind.
Thoughts of a minute ago are lost.
All I see is a future that will not last.
Thoughts of hate,
.........feelings are void.
Why can’t I accept fate and leave well enough alone.
Continue to try to make a happy home.
To force a smile to my face that only misery seems to replace.
As the tears once again take their rightful place.
Love to hate,
...........hate to love.
A soul caught in a push and shove.
Do this or don’t,
.........stay or run?
What in the hell have I done?
To feel this way and to hurt and cry.
Why?
....Why?
.......Why?
This is what I demand to know.
Scared to face the truth.
Cry to my-self so that no one sees.
Continue to be the unhappy me.