Getting Back
Requires Trust
and strength
somewhere latent, sleeping?
I can't surrender
Beyond the rail I can't
Must find
That dream means everything
to me.
Everything.
Self-destruction often tempts
hand on my neck
angles it slightly
til I give in
I musn't
Hold tight
Keep blinking
Straining to see
Their shapes, colors
The beauty of
Knowing
Feeling
Doing, breathing
living
Being
what I love
Love itself
music, movement
Passion
Freedom
Expression and truth
Should trump fear and weakness
Should they not?
I fear my own naivety
yet won't surrender
I'm not ready
The light in me
Is small
But not extinguished
I struggle
To make it grow brighter
To glow once more