Black dark night
railing of angular metal
what lies beyond
in time and space and awareness
I'll go with nothing
nothing bigger
nothing beyond
nothing within
hope has been sucked out of me
like a fetus from a uterus in a vacuum
i'm bleeding
nothing left to give
and who really cares?
people look at pity and run
who wants to be brought down?
no one
it's toxic, flavors of energy
potent wildfire
i need flames of hope
but I'm too angry to see anyone
with a light that is happy
it disgusts me
in this world
barren, miserable, lonely
i'm somehow sickly satisfied
nothing to gain, nothing to lose
can't hurt me anymore, them dreams
them dreams that taunt you
make you believe in them
their figures, shapes, colors -- they seem real and vivid
and then fade into darkness before you know it
right as you are about to touch them, hold their hand
they fade into darkness
somewhere beyond that stupid stupid
rail